changes:
also im so tired. im gonna go to uni again in september, so ill move back in with my parents which means ill wanna kill myself 24/7. the planet goes on in being round etc etc
until my next wondrous reappearance!
...or yknow what lets not.
In the last few months I felt... bad. all the time except when I didn't, but I came to a few Realisations.
The most important two are: that theres no free will and that i completely dont believe in copyright. at all. there should be no intellectual property, no protected works, if i wanted to make money off selling garfield, i should be able to
(the fact that i dont beleiev in it doesnt mean that stealing shit and passing it off as yours just for profit is not a dick more, i just dont think its immoral)
you prolly see where its leading
but its hard to me to condemn the art stealing AI, if I ultimately agree with what its doing. (also as a sidenote, how is learning the patterns of bits next to each other stealing? llms do not curry systems with images, they dont cache anything, they just learn that five pixels next to each other often equals the number 1, or that the word "because" is often preceded by a comma. calling it theft needlessly anthroporphises really interestign algoritms)
of course, there is the issue of energy costs, and I definitely do not enjoy not see the use in shoving "intelligent" (=pattern recognizing) assistants into everything. the training and usage of models is done in datacenters that usually belong to a cloud provider, like google, amazon or microsoft. those same datacenters host your websites, every storage solution you can think of, every point of data you can imagine. According to various articles and papers I've read, AI model usage and training on most of those doesn not exceed 10-15%. Most of the outrage towards this is very often misinterpreted numbers. Do not take this as me being all "AI is good we should all use it!". I don't particularly like it, though I admire the science behind how it is trained, and how I can influence it. But what i fucking hate is people fearmongering, and actively boycotting everything that "seems AI". And that what i said is very general, lets not get into generative AI.
im bringin it all up, because im tired. im very depressed. but ive been working on a visual novel framework since about march this year. it;s not that complicated, its just a plaintext script file anyone can write, which gets plugged into a parser that spits out a json file, which in turn is displayed as a whole dating sim client side. but damn it took long, because ive no motivation to do anything, except short weeks where im overflowing with joy and energy. but, i finally finished it, here;
Now, I took most (or maybe all? i dont remember) of the UI Assets from the Darkest Dungeon 1 Game which was made by RedHook. From what I know of it, redhooks allows transformative works if i dont derive any profit from them, which is the case. I drew the Dismas sprites myself, but for the backgrounds, I used AI. Because I wanted a finished Demo product, and I have neitehr the money nor energy to do them myself or commission people.
I used ChatGPT to help me with the code, obviously, but the buld ok thinking it up fell on me. A chatbot no matter how advanced would not be able to bring this togetehr, because as i said, they have no internal state, theyre just text/token generators.
I feel the need to write all that, because well... Ai is the big bard word against artists rn. but i AM an artist. if i referenced an AI picture would it be human made? if i used colors from one? if i made a collage? The reality is, you cannot define "AI Art" in a way that would exclude all machine generated text and picture, but include all human made.
So yeah, enjoy the game, im gonna rot in bed til uni starts
See ya - Milo
so theres a checklist of stuff thats noteworthy today:
i moved! from my messy ass apartment! bad news: its back in with my parents so try not to kill yourself challenge is on
uni is starting in two months. scary
i am sosososo happy to announce the song page has a whooping 24 songs now! most of them have parts that dont mesh that well or are a few syllabes too long... the come dance with me is a real treat tho!
uhh what else
ive been drawing dismas n my sona in a lot of um. situations (on my 18+ NOT SAFE FOR WORK ART PAGE)
hey do you have artfight? i do! now that im finished moving i have more art to draw, so attack me there! (also theres gonna be a proper artfight page :3)
on a personal note... i dunno ive been having these mood swings where im creating creating creating and the art/language juices are flowing but at night im depressed, like some kinda bipolared dr. jekyll and mr. hyde
....oh and ive also been to rock im park! novarock is SO MUCH BETTER ORGANIZED
so yeah... content update also i updated a lot of stuff backend wise, and the work on my secret project is like 70% done
btw sorry for the confusing dates on the newsposts... this one is the most recent one, as of july 22 2024! im so tired
see me sometime, please? -milo
well. um. hiiii
im moving out in two weeks, artfight is in two days, work has been ... good
i made a first friend i like since... forever, i got almost evicted for having my apartment be a fucking shithouse, my twitter acc got suspended for hating on taylor alison swift, i went to rock im park and pyrkon, and i have a plan for the next 3 years
so for me it was a quite a full few months i guess
onto the new things:
to another year of not killing yourself (they say in june) - milo
not much happening, but its an update, yeah? never said those would be consistent
on a personal note, ive been struggling more and more recently, because of my appearance. also im making my hair green again, its a long process
stay alive out there -milo
yeah i finally decided to shill out the 5 bucks for neo supporter and 20 eur per year for a domain name because its fun yanno? plus apparently i could upload any filetype i want now, though i havent tested it :o
the changes are as follows:
neos uploading system is still verry annoyingly limited, so i have to reupload every file in my paginated subpages because of hashes or ordering or something grrr i should look into mounting as a drive, but its 4 am so im going zzzzz mimimimi
about my personal life updates, i continue to exist with more or less sever mood swings, though ive taken up smoking instead of drinking, and im currently dealing with a fruitflies infestation :(
oh and i dyed my hair red again, but a more cherry color this time :D
and for last, if the images on the art-i-like page looked... well like shit it was my bad, i uploaded the dev version by mistake :||| sorry bout that lol!
well thats all, till next time internauts!
not many!
but as you mightve seen, the last (undocumented) "big" site update was done to rework some css and make it a bit more responsive. that plus the art page has been completely rehauled (check it out here if you havent already!). its where i put things that i find ~evocative~ for whatever reason, and there's also tags and their dedicated pages ^^
on a sidenote eleventy devs: PLEASE add a dedicated neste pagination support, that allows you to add pagination INSIDE the paginated tag pages from collections.all!!! [there is a plugin for it on here but its fucky and like 5 versions outdated so.... please make this builtin because if i have to write a javascript collection for EVERY tag i'll go insane ahah]
aside over LMAO
back to things that are new! i am going to a psychologist for the fist time in 10 months!!!! <= personal update quota reached :]
do you have hobbies? i do! i really, no, really enjoy translating songs (though im sure theres a word for that that's better than simple translation. transliteration maybe?)
it's a bit like pulling teeth, but i did manage to force my brain to finish some songs, you can check out the labors of my love here
and hey - on the off-chance you want a song translated to/from german english or polish shoot me a message on my profile! i'm usually up for a challenge, though there are songs that are simply.... untranslateable :/
beyond that... i went to paris, i bought a dirndl, i keep existing, like a cockroach behind the fridge of the universe
so thats all for this one, hope yall enjoy!
changes:
the shrines remain placeholded, since i have been going through things, but i have to keep fighting the urge to ad css so... maybe its time now?
anyway, im trying to write something... something useful that is, but it turns out i have nothing to say :(
well, till next time!
i figured out (halfway anyway) how pagination an collections work! :D
so here, check out my new page here!!
still no css, that's a bit further down the pipeline, since before i start fiddling with sass (yeah i am leaning sass, no its not going well) i want to have the base structure and all most of the features from the previous version!
also in this update i bring you /robots.txt, /sitemap.xml (with a robots.txt), a 404 page and an improved news page!
im not sure if i'll keep these update notes, but for now i cant be arsed to squash and organize my repo commits haha. for the features coming up next: regina spektor fanpage! and (possibly) other [planned] placeholder pags :D
i mean im keeping the name and stuff, but im trying to make this whole website thing... the right way
so im using eleventy!
instead of copy and pasting common elements like navigation, headers, footers etc... it uses templates to fill my website, and generates a whole static website for me! i just have to update it myself, but it's like a very slow manual me-powered server haha
i would like to keep this separated into a more technical and a media/oc/fandom part, and id like to make some technical guides lmao